One of my worst fears is that my health will deteriorate to the point where my primary goal in life is to survive, not thrive. I fear that my world will become smaller and smaller, until all I see and can handle is myself and what is immediately in front of me. This is more than an uneasiness or worry I have; it is a gut-wrenching, borderline-panic-attack causing fear. With every passing year and sacrifice I make for my health, I fear that my world will shrink to past the point of no return.
This post was very difficult to write because it is a topic that is deeply personal to me and the people I love. It is also something I struggle with every time I have to make a lifestyle change or didn’t get the news I was hoping for. Hear my heart when I say that I am truly and deeply sorry that this is your reality. I have cried those same tears for myself and people I care about. I sincerely believe you were created to thrive, not to simply to survive. With that said, this is an open letter to those with a shrinking world caused by chronic illness: