I have followed the rules of my diet for over 2 ½ years now. I’ve cheated along the way and definitely have not be perfect but I’ve basically always followed the rules.
The rules have changed though and sometimes pretty frequently. For two months it may have be okay to eat fruit and the next three it may not have be. Often, I would create other rules for myself, such as, how often to rebound, to avoid certain hair products because of the chemicals, or stop painting my nails because it promotes estrogen dominance.
All of these other rules were good and helped my body but they would overwhelming at times. Rules. Constant rules. When I’d break one of my own rules, I’d feel like I was letting myself down which, at times, was almost worse then letting down others.
For Christmas and my birthday this year, I received a few new bottles of nail polish. I was grateful but disappointed because I knew I wouldn’t be able to use them because of my no nail polish rule. I’ve been staring at those bottles for a few weeks now. I was tempted to paint my nails but I refused to let myself down by breaking that rule.
When I told my mom she told me to just do it. See, all those rules can weigh you down and cause you to not enjoy the little things in life. It is very important to take responsibility of your health and to care for your body but when the little rules consume you and cause stress, then it is likely the rules, or treatment, are causing more harm than good.
I need follow my diet and most of my own rules but not painting my nails was an extra thing that I was never told specifically not to do. I’m taking care of my body and doing almost everything I know how to so I’ve decided that it is okay to paint my nails and enjoy breaking this little rule for a week and when it starts to chip I will take it off right away.
Is there anything in your life like this?